I have not been able to balance my time between work and practice. I really needed to work. I was drowning in debt. So, a job was necessary. And it has helped a great deal. I have nearly paid off one major credit card debt and have been able to squash other small debts.
The problem though is that I am always too tired to do much of anything else after work. So I have not been practicing. My plan was to drive the school bus and maybe play some weekend gigs. Then in the summer, I would maybe do a cruise ship gig. However, at this stage, I am not ready to play in public. I have been way too tired to practice.
Another thing that is happening is the wrist on which I had carpal tunnel surgery in December really hurts. It is so sore that it is no longer my stronger hand. I can’t lift anything heavy without pain. And by heavy I talking about 5 to 10 pounds. The frightening thing is that I am having symptoms in my left hand which led to surgery on the right.
Losing strength in my hand or the ability to use it after carpal tunnel surgery was my biggest fear. When you are young you feel like you can do anything. Now that I am getting old it feels like many things I enjoy are being taken away from me. I am jealous of youth and quite envious. How I wish I had another run at life.
Anyway, I am getting more used to the work schedule. Maybe next year I will be able to do better. This summer looks like it will be a few months of practice if I can get past my pain. Hopefully, I can catch up to where I thought I would be by now. I want to be ready next summer to gig. Wouldn’t it be great if I could get to a point where I could just do music? I miss the Navy in that regard. My only job was to practice and be ready for any gigs that came up.
Well, that’s enough whining about my life.
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